close my eyes and leap

I have come to realize that once you get comfortable and content with where you are in life, in a relationship, in a job, that is when the change happens. That is when something BIG happens in your life. That's when you get a promotion, your boyfriend proposes, etc. So, I have decided to just be content with where I am in my life right now. I can't change anything overnight so I guess I just need to surrender.....and hope that by surrendering, things will change in my life. I know logically I won't be stuck here forever so eventually something has to change, and that is what I have been holding onto. Surrendering is hard, it's hard to just let go and give in. It's hard to wait for the change. I tend to be a very impatient person, but I am going to work on just letting go and giving in and getting excited to see the change happen.

releasing my grip
surrendering all
exhaling deep
preparing for the fall

falling into my life
falling into my own
falling into happiness
falling away from being alone

I can see it coming
it's just within my grasp
coming closer and closer
I begin to gasp

I'm losing my breath
my chest is getting tight
my body begins to shake
the harder I have to fight

fight my insecurities
fight my fear
fight for separation
fight to not disappear

I will conquer my scared self
I won't have to continue to weep
I am ready for my next chapter
I am ready to close my eyes and leap


Song that goes with this post: Defying Gravity