my love will find me

To my future husband,

Even though we haven't met yet I still think of you daily. I pray that you are safe. I dream of holding you in bed as we listen to it raining outside. I ache to make love to you, to feel you that close to me gives me goosebumps and tears in my eyes. I can't wait to sleep in on a Saturday morning and wake up and make love before we even get out of bed.

If I close my eyes tight enough I can imagine what your arms feel like around my waist. I can imagine the strength in them, yet the gentleness. It will be the type of hug that I will never want to release from.

I can imagine what your scent will smell like. It will be a perfect mix of sexy cologne and your natural scent. I can feel the taste of your kiss on my lips, I just know that whenever we kiss it's going to take my breath away every time.

I know our love will be the type of love that goes on forever, because we will be so connected that it goes beyond just meeting each other, it will be as if we have known each other for lifetimes before.

I hear songs all the time and connect to them so deeply as if those lyrics are made for our love. Here are just a few songs that remind me of us when I hear them:

Like You'll Never See Me Again – Alicia Keys
I Wanna Grow Old With You – Westlife
Fearless Love – Melissa Etheridge
Somewhere Out There – James Ingram

There are many other songs but these are the ones that really make me think of you. It's fun to think about you, it somehow makes me feel close to you even though we haven't met yet......or have we? What if we passed in the street? What if we stood beside each other in line at the store? What if I bumped into you and said “excuse me”? What if we missed our chance to be together because we looked right past each other? What if we only get one chance to meet and we missed our chance because of other circumstances? Like what if we were supposed to meet at a play at Roger's Theater but I didn't go the night you did? Or what if we were meant to meet at a gas station but missed each other by a few minutes because one of us got stuck in traffic? What if you were in Kentucky but we moved too soon before we were able to meet? The list goes on and on, but what scares me most is what if I never meet you? What if you aren't here anymore? What if something happened and you were in a tragic fatal accident and were taken from this world too soon? Or what if we have already met and spent an entire beautiful weekend together.....but for certain circumstances that's out of our control we just can't be together.

I know you are out there and somehow, someway we WILL find each other. And if we have already met, then we will find each other again.....because true love always finds it's way. I can feel it in my heart that my love will find me....the person I'm supposed to be with will find me....and it will be magical.