want

In 5 years I want to feel settled. That doesn't necessarily mean married, it just means that whatever I am doing, wherever I am, I just want to feel settled. In 5 years I will be 32 years old so I definitely want to be out on my own and in my own house/apartment. I want a good stable job. I want to have a vision for my future.

In 5 years I would love to have someone in my life that I could call my very own. I have so much love to give and it saddens me when it's just sitting inside me stagnant.

In 5 years I want to have met up with “E” a few more times. In fact I would like to make October 10th and 11th the days that we meet up kinda like to mark the anniversary of our first meeting. I'm sure that won't be able to happen, but it's at least fun to think about and hope for.

In 5 years I want to be smaller. I want to be a healthier weight and in better shape. I'm not wanting to be a stick figure, because to me that is just not sexy. But I would definitely like to be smaller.

In 5 years I want to be happy. I want to wake up every morning excited for the day ahead of me and I want to go to bed feeling satisfied. I'm so tired of being sad all the time, and in 5 years I just want to wake up happy.

In 5 years I want to have my OWN life.....no.....let me rephrase.....in 5 years I WILL have my own life. Hell, in 1 year I WILL have my own life. If I can't dream about it and imagine it then I won't have any drive to make it happen.

And most importantly, I just want to feel like I belong. I just want to live.