alone and lonely
here in this room
alone and lonely
nothing but doom
no light to be seen
no sound to be heard
just me by myself
my vision is blurred
tears pour from my eyes
raspy breaths escape my lips
with my body trembling
I finally come to grips
9 years have gone by
my life was suddenly put on hold
I never really got asked
I feel like I was just told
18 months have now gone by
and I'm still in the same place I was
things have to change soon
before something drastic does
I have to stop feeling guilty
I have to find the strength to leave
the youngest one leaves first?
that will be tough for them to receive
eventually she will have to grow up
but what if she's too scared to?
is that my burden to carry?
does it mean I should put my life out of view?
I wish I could have a normal sister
it scares me the things I think and feel
sometimes I just really hate her
I hate how everything with her is always a big ordeal
as each day passes I grow more distant
this quiet good girl is growing wings
I'm breaking free and soon will fly
where I will finally be able to do naughty things
Song that goes with this post: River Flows In You
