rage

this built up rage that I have for you is right at the surface
one false word from you and I explode
I can feel it erupting any day now
and when it does that's when I hit the road

I wish I fully understood why I have this rage towards you
maybe it's because you are always over my shoulder
maybe it's because you treat me like I'm still 14 years old
maybe it's time I stand up to you and get just bolder

you need to realize that I'm not a little girl anymore
you can't make my decisions for me or tell me what to do
I need to make my own mistakes I need to live
I need space and I need distances between me and you

I hate that I'm angry all the time
it scares me the things I think and feel
I feel out of control and like I'm always on the edge
I'm tired of being fake I just want to be real

when I leave I know it will put a wedge between us
and deep inside...as sick as it sounds...that's what I need
because that's the only way I will get any separation
because staying here will only cause us both to bleed


Song that goes with this post: Aftermath